Reptile's Something

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 17:05:21 GMT

trying to see if this link thing still works

rawr

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 03:03:34 GMT

you know i have not posted on this for a long time
i almost forgot about my good old lj

well you know that art show
that bastard stole my money i think
he canceled the show last minute due to problems with the location...
NOT HAVING POWER!

yeah not heard from him in a hot minute

other than that
i work at the st petersburg times now
7 nights a fucking week
it blows but at least it is a job
I tattoo from time to time
and still have one coupon book route
I am not making ends meet all the way but i am getting closer

it will all take time

I am single
very lonley
very put up with men in general
but kinda happy i dont have to put up with anyone unless i want to

life is just life

oh and sally started school
she is a big girl now
i am so proud of her
what a big girl i have

lizz

art show and new tattoo i did

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 04:49:31 GMT

www.eventsatppc.com/
Fabrication of Imagination
A "Culture On The Edge" Art Event
June 26th 2009
Hosted by
The Roosevelt

my art work is not all up yet but i am there
This is my first show I am so excited.
for once I am showing my artwork

and here is yet another tattoo I did

I came up with this one all by myself yay
total opposites in a yin and yang
except the tails are very close in shape
i did one thing to keep them similar

at the castle ...i am a dancing fool

Thu, 28 May 2009 05:51:04 GMT

car broke tattoos van mothersday work

Wed, 13 May 2009 04:01:36 GMT

first off I had to start on another tattoo that I promised to do before I did anyone elses.
He paid for it before my tattoo stuff got stuck into a storage unit for a year and then barried.
Now i am a free agent and can tattoo anyone without guilt of not being caught up
i still have to do one on Celeste but she doesn't know what she wants all the way

it still needs purple and more orange but he was in to much pain

The other reason i was not on the the computer for the last few days was that my car finally took a shit
the engine totally locked up after the gasket finally gave way the entire way....while driving.

joy

my dad actually lent me 600 bucks to get a van
a nice van
i have to pay him back so fast it hurts
if anyone needs tattoo work let me know asap
I finally just got back to toni and she is seeing about the timing of it all

i am sun burnt....badly lol
I worked in the sun for 4 days and went to the beach
whoot
this is all after starting proactive for my skin so i am one big red ball of death lol

my mothers day rocked
who else had a moms day that rocked?
mine was awesome
here are some pictures

me

sally and the back of mia's head

sunscreen did not help but i still put it on

more me

my mommy

tattoo night is back mother fuckers edit to add old pictures

Mon, 04 May 2009 14:54:48 GMT

that was one of the longest most intense tattoo sessions i have ever in my life done.
It is funny that it is the first one i do on someone besides myself when i get my gear back.
Because omg my body hurts. I can only imagine what Evan's back feels like.
oh and never drink a shit load of home made sangria right after working really hard for 7 hours tattooing and then expect to be awake enough to go hang out with your friends afterward.
I totally pissed a lot of people off by just going home.

well i give you .....
evans back

this is what he started with a few years ago.
,

this is what it looked like after the first few times working on it

before picture yesterday, I had only drawn on it with a pen at this point to get ideas. We had done a lot of work before on this tattoo covering up a really kinda boring tribal thing. Turns out Evans skin eats through black so you realllllyyyyy gotta pound that shit in there ....so we at least had something to work with by this point.

this is after an hour or two sculpting out one of the faces

halfway through, what a trooper

done close up

in flight

that man is a trooper. He did not bitch or anything. A couple of places sucked for him but man oh man did he hold on and did very well. Next we totally redo the spiral stuff coming off the bottom. But not till he heals up some.

why

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 15:51:24 GMT

why after all I have been through....does life just suck even more day by day?

closure and other such sad shit

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 16:42:16 GMT

closure ....so i found out why pat had been pushing me away.
He did not know how to tell me that he would be leaving Florida as soon as he got the chance.
He doesn't want to stay here. I have no choice but to stay in Florida due to my children. I could never do a split thing with Aaron where I take the kids half the year or something. It would be to hard on both of us. Aaron wants to be apart of each event in the children's lives. Which I want the same. It sucks that for the best interest of the children we will have to live close to each other. But if it is picking over a man or my children...Pat knew what the answer would be.
It is very sad but we had a very long conversation last night. I cried a hell of a lot when it sunk in. My feelings for him where rather deep. It hurts to know that in order to not get totally crushed that I have to let him go.
Atleast now for sure we will be friends. And we will always stay close to each others heart. But the long and the short of it is that we are just not compatible people.

I also found out from my little sister the true story of my mother.
My mother is fighting to basically live with herself at this point. My mother doesn't return my phone calls or really wishes to have contact with the outside world it seems. She told me that my mom is now only 101 pounds with clothing on while holding a purse. She is taller than me as well....she is just over 6 ft tall.
Is this what is going to happen to me?
Am I going to loose my mother?

Also I cannot find other work to save my fucking soul. It is driving me batshit.
No matter how much I try to find a way out of here It doesn't seem to work.
I need to get out of this house before Gordon gets back from the military and needs his room back.
I am desperate for work.

This is turning out to be a really crappy life.

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 14:46:33 GMT

over the last few days i have had the most stress i have had in a long time

Wednesday i find out my check that i was supposed to get on Monday was still not here
I had to pay a fine i got for not having a valid drivers license and no insurance today (Friday the 27th) or i would be in hot water (yes i even got an extension and the extension was up).
I had call the corporate office after my boss was not answering my calls. They where supposed to double check the address and make sure it got sent out to the right place and if it was not the right address they where to call me back. They did not call me back therefore i thought it went out right.
Friday comes around and I had been calling everyone i could to get my check in.
Actually I was supposed to get two checks for a good amount of money that was gonna get me outta the shit.
well.....my boss eddy gave them the wrong address....they wanted to doc me 25 bucks for giving him the wrong address...when eddy found out he fucked up he decided to float the bill (needless to say before he found that out I was PISSED)
he also forgot to file for my second check.
If it was not for Rachel going and paying my tickets with me today I would of had a benchwarnet out on me.
fucking moron
so tomorrow he is supposed to hand me cash
thank god
if he doesn't i am gonna bitch slap puppies.

while this is all going on i managed to get some of the money pat owed me so I could go to the doctor. I had pulled my neck again and the pain was going all the way down my back.
He got me of vicodin which is awesome
he put me on tramidol, flexoril, and a powerful antienflatory
So for the first time ever I am not in pain
the only issue is that for the last two days i have been a spacey and tired while my body adjusts to the new meds
but i know how tramidol works cause i had been on it before
it makes you feel like crap for a few days then the symptoms go away and you feel just fine.

well
I am so happy about this I call up the man I have been dating.
we end up getting into a tiff on how he thinks that I should just exercise and it will cure my genetic condition. He says I am to dependent on doctors and pills.
If he only knew what kinda life i had been living and how wonderful that I am not in pain, or on hard drugs for pain, and that I can now exercise lightly to build myself up a bit more. He doesn't think I am any amount of good shape at all and doesn't believe me that i am doing everything I can to make my life better when it comes to my fiscal self. He also thinks I am anorexic....which if any of my friends would tell him that is the most retarded thing ever cause all I do is eat.
He also doesn't like the fact that I talk ....ALOT
I blither
I know i do this but I talk fast and I always have stuff on my mind and i like to get into deep long fast talking conversations with people. He hated that idea or the fact that I do talk alot.
He also is a gypsy type person
always on the move and I think the idea of shacking up with a woman who cannot leave the state or the county because of her kids to live kinda bogged him down and he was not ready for that at all.
So I am single
I broke up with him
I think it was a bit of a mutual thing
Pat is a nice man. He is handsome and sweet. He is loyal and kind and good hearted. But I don't think we where meant to be together.
I will miss being with him a lot but it was good to end it now when we would not be angry with each other or fight. It was a pretty peaceful break up considering.

lizz

you know the world is comming to an end when.....

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 13:25:26 GMT

people (mostly my chick friends) are turning to me for comfort/advice/mental health issues

wow everyone is down
we need a party
a big one
with pellow fights and beer

it is amazing
i find it funny that people want my help when my shit is not together either
but I do find it comforting that people still need my advice or comfort and company

Like Erika says about herself
"i give great advice, I just don't actually take any of it for myself"

I now go get to finish another fucking coupon book route that I am getting fucked over on
this is my third one this week
I have pulled my neck again and cannot see straight
but dana has not needed me in the shop at all so I had to pick up extra work someplace

I do have a doctors appointment on thursday
yay

Celeste has a bad tooth and wants to punch babies
poor thing
leave it to god to invent exposed bones on the human body and then invent
coffee and cigs....this is not a good combo
I need a tooth pulled as well

Erika is feeling like a piece of meat and alone
people need to be her friend and not try to sleep with her before she starts killing bitches

i hate people
my neck hurts
fuck

selling stuff for pat via ebay

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 21:27:50 GMT

Leather stuffs is coolness

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll

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better and worse

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 16:36:54 GMT

My back is better but I now have to run off to the eyeglass place
turns out sally is half blind
she is legally blind in one of her eyes due to a lazy eye
she has never been able to see out of it
i knew she had a problem
but I did not know it was this bad
I am rather upset at myself for not knowing it was really this bad
it can be fixed though
she needs to have glasses for awhile and eye patches on her good eye to
make the bad eye start working

my cross eyed baby

wow

fuck

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 03:45:01 GMT

I sprained/sprained my back
I am not able to walk ...move ....or anything
i am in hell
the baby wont go to sleep
I can barely take care of the kids
i went to the doctor and they took some of the presure out
fun times there
the meds they gave me are not really helping
you would think massive amounts of pain killers would work
but no
great
shoot me

i am driving to texas

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 05:12:54 GMT

yep
my ass
in a car
for 16 hours
oh BOY

i need this

I am just going
I will be back Wednesday
i got the day switched with dana
he needed me Thursday anyway before i even asked him

it was a sign that i needed to go

wish me luck
I am doing extra work for the coupon book to afford this
kill me
next week is gonna be hell when i get back

lizz

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 23:20:51 GMT

i tweet now with celeste

i am lizzreptile

the internetz

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 17:23:58 GMT

i has them
whoot

it has been a long few months for me
i am living in largo still
I really cant wait until i figure out how to have a place of my own

i have been going out from time to time and remembering who my real friends are

been chilling a lot with celeste

we went to limey's last night for a few hours
had a few beers and cheese fries
i gotta learn not to eat that stuff but it is sooooo good
bacon makes everything better
i love bacon

bacon bacon bacon
i had bacon for breakfast
mmmmm bacon

i need more bacon

celeste would say at this point that i need to not cut her off in traffic twice
heheheh
i was being a bitch and a half when i left work yesterday
Cel had stopped by to say hi to me after she got off of work
and we where being silly so i made it hard for her to get out of the parking lot and then to do a uturn on main in dunedin
I am a cunt bag sometimes
she is gonna put roaches in my hair or something
i just know it

i am still alive

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 00:41:22 GMT

I would post about all the shit that has been going on in my life if the library was not about to close
I have moved to largo
broke up with Keith
I am alone now
but I am happy and doing well
I started another job today
it seems like they are a good bunch of people
I will be working for a green economy getting donations to help make the world more green
and make it so the people have a better voice on the ballots

I went out last night and boy do i still feel like shit
I took celeste over to a friends house in tampa
then went to the castle
got bored
went to another friends house
picked celeste up
and ended up chilling with her in tampa till like 6 am
i was so tired i ended up passing out on her floor
but OMG did we have a good night of being retarded girls
the more I hang out with her the more I realize that I really
have more fun when I am around her
total cool friend

her fucking car is being a bastard
i hate her car
fuck her car
up the ass
no wait fuck the car company who told her the inspections had all been done
but seemed to forget to check the timing belt
fuck you guys

lizz

wtf my mom hit my car

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 10:19:16 GMT

ok ....the stress here is officially to much

i live with my parents pending the devorce for all those who did not know

welllllll
after loosing my cell phone to my father not paying his part of the family plan
not having regular internet access because my mom is writing a very well written book and needs the lappy all the time
not being able to watch what i want to on tv cause my parents think everything i like is horrible
and having the water turned off
I got pissed at my father when he ditched me when we where supposed to meet up in the middle of the night at a newspaper recycling place to deal with some old books of his...i went home and was pissed
i told my mom about it
she was totally wrapped up in her own little self pity world
i took off without resolving the problem to get the money that Rachael owes me for the storage unit before she passed out ( little old woman i share a storage unit with)... my mom flips the fuck out goes to drive off in a huff in her car
AND HITS MINE
she ALMOST destroyed it
but i managed to hammer parts of the car away from the tire on the back driver's side....
i really am numb right now
i cant turn my own mother in to the cops
i don't think my father is going to pay for the repair
or even compensation me for the fact that his wife went kinda nuts

great

i have never felt so alone

no phone

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 05:33:18 GMT

my phone is dead
dad fucked the service
wellcome to my hell
i should have a new number soon

peace

celeste said it best in a past lj post

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 06:02:21 GMT

"the bad moods

I has it"

yep

so there right now
i have not been in this bad of a mood in forever

I hate it when someone pisses you off to the point of crying
and then when you try to talk to someone else about how you feel
they blame you for allowing someone to piss you off
this started a horrible circle of being pissed off at
everyone around me
then my mom says that baby sitting on Saturdays is soon to be gone

so now i am really fucked
not getting any financial help
not getting any baby sitting help
medicaid is taking it sweet time processing my last paper work
and i have to bring them more crap tomorrow
I need those fucking food stamps NOW

fuck this world
I need help to get caught up but all my money gets flushed down the fucking drain

fuck this bad mood

eat me world

oh before midnight happens

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 03:33:11 GMT

Happy birthday Celeste!!

you are now as old as MEEEEE

whoot

a day in o town

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 19:33:09 GMT

So for erikas b day i went to orlando to just kick it with her
much fun to be had

we went to a show with her mom
nothing i realy was OHG i have to see but it was just for her to have people for her birthday
we where pussy's though
I only had two drinks the whole night and erika drank JUST enough to be perfect
we went back to the hotel and just passed out at 1 am
we sound like such old farts
oh well
we had fun

first time for internet time

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 07:04:18 GMT

I have not had time or the ability to get on the internet in about two weeks
I am sorry for all those people that actually like talking to me

this is the first time i have had in a LONG time to just be able to dick around on the internet and not use the time I actually have in between my parents using the computer to just do job research or other such important things

I am trying right now to get a job with Celeste
we will see how that works out
there are a lot of ifs and whats and maybes on that but who knows
it could work out

other than that It was Amelia's birthday on the 17th but Aaron had the kids
so i celebrated it on the 18th
lots of fun
Erika has the photos cause my cameras batteries died at the worst time

sally's birthday was on the 8th of aug and it was wonderful as well
everyone had fun at the beach

it has just been absolutely hectic around here
some good times and some bad times but it all works out in the wash

oh on a last note
I filed for divorce
kinda weird to actually do that but yeah
it had to happen

geting my shit together

Mon, 25 Aug 2008 02:46:09 GMT

holly shit i have so much crap to do tomorrow it is not even funny

first off i have to find a new job....next on the list of things to do is that i am getting rid of the van.....i am getting car from keith cause he no longer needs and or wants it
it is a 94 sattern...sweet....it knocks off my car payments and the insurance is only 59 dollars a month or some such rot as aposed to 170 a month

so i wont end up working just to afford a car that is bad on gas and dieing anyway weeeeee
this meens i have to get new insurance tomorrow if all goes acording to plan

the other thing i need to do is apartment hunt like all hell and back

so
job hunt
insurance
apartment hunt

gaaaaaaaaaaa

lots to do

on a side not i found out i have been driving around without insurance due to my father FUCKING ME OUT OF MONEY AGAIN ....good god i need to move out of here

what happened was that victoria sent me 200 dollars when i was really broke after moving in with my parents to help me out ....the money was put on my fathers card (being transfered from ausi it just made it easier to get it to me) I handed my father my bill for my insurance and asked him to pay it for me....found out ...the trasaction was never made and the trasaction was never ever recorded by the bank.....wtf...he is paying me back tommorow....this though meens i have not had insurance for 6 weeks ....OMG

blah
i need out

my mom is just being my mother which still is driving me bat shit

I QUIT DOMINOES

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 23:46:17 GMT

they fucked up my check
the boss was drunk when i tracked him down and instead of him saying we will talk later in a drunken rage yelled
"THERE IS NO WAY THE COMPUTER FUCKS UP LIKE THAT"

they took me off closing sunday nights
which is bullshit cause they said it was i was to slow cleaning the store at night
well....MAYBE if the fucking POS manager would just get off her fat ass and clean as well like she is supposed to do then I would
not have to do everything myself.
PLUS I was one of the few people that actually cleaned the damn place not do the bare minimum
I actually cleaned the fucking place.

The manager was nothing more than a Drunk
and the shift manager is a druggy

fuck them

I will find something better withing 48 hours